I enjoyed my time at home with the kiddos.
I was SO grateful to have the opportunity to see them learn and change each day because I KNOW so many women wish they could do the same.
With that being said, I felt like I was good at something and it WASN’T being a SAHM!!!
I felt like there was one place I KNEW what I was doing.
I felt like there was one place I could ACCOMPLISH something.
I decided to go back to work.
There is something very important to this part of the story.
I did NOT PRAY about going back to work. I could NOT talk to GOD about this decision. I did NOT want to hear what he had to say!!! There I said it...
James Chapter 4:3 says: “When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”
I did not want to talk to God about this decision because I wanted to go back to work for purely selfish reasons.
I never realized how much I thrived on the “atta boys” until they went away.
It makes me SICK that my self-worth was that tied up in what ANYONE thought of me…
I then found out I was pregnant again. It was a complete surprise! Total God thing? Ya think?????