I enjoyed my time at home with the kiddos.
I was SO grateful to have the opportunity to see them learn and change each day because I KNOW so many women wish they could do the same.
With that being said, I felt like I was good at something and it WASN’T being a SAHM!!!
I felt like there was one place I KNEW what I was doing.
I felt like there was one place I could ACCOMPLISH something.
I decided to go back to work.
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There is something very important to this part of the story.
I did NOT PRAY about going back to work. I could NOT talk to GOD about this decision. I did NOT want to hear what he had to say!!! There I said it...
James Chapter 4:3 says: “When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”
I did not want to talk to God about this decision because I wanted to go back to work for purely selfish reasons.
I never realized how much I thrived on the “atta boys” until they went away.
It makes me SICK that my self-worth was that tied up in what ANYONE thought of me…
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I then found out I was pregnant again. It was a complete surprise! Total God thing? Ya think?????
I have always heard that if you want to make God laugh - tell him your plans!!
ReplyDeleteIsn't that the truth Laurel!!!
ReplyDeleteLove your transparency, girl!! That's what being real with each other is all about, right? Love ya!
ReplyDeleteI love you too Sarah!! That's right...i said if i was going to do this then it was going to be true to life,,,even if it's a bit ugly at times. :)
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