Something struck me this morning as I was walking into my kitchen to put the kids milk cups back in the fridge after breakfast…I have NO idea WHY it hit me when it did…maybe because with the new year beginning I've been pondering resolutions and goals and how my life will be “different” this year.
Ya know pondering as I’m fighting a cold, and cleaning up spilled milk and starting a new business and being specific and intentional about my blog. Pondering as my house is a mess, and I feel out of sorts a lot of the time, and my to do list is loaded with more “to dos” than lines marking things complete. Pondering as I stress about ensuring I am 100% authentic to everyone all the time because that is my #1 pet peeve. Pondering as I wonder if I let me kids watch too much television, as I am concerned I’m going to get locked in the basement by my 3 year old every time I go down to switch out laundry (because it already happened once), as I think I really do need to make that eye appointment but am avoiding it because I hate the eye dr (if your glasses were as thick as mine and your eyes kept getting worse each year you would want to avoid it too).
Oh yeah that thing that struck me…(see I really get off track easily don’t I…please tell me I’m not the only one)…some days I still wake up and think of myself as that carefree 20 year old…and what struck me is that that was 12 years ago! I remember my mom telling me when I was probably about 25 and talking to her about how I didn't feel old enough to have a responsible job and my own condo that she didn't feel almost 50. Life marches along whether we fully realize those moments or not.
Those 12 years were FILLED with all kinds of different experiences. Boy, am I a different person now. How can I look back at that girl and simultaneously still think I am the same but yet KNOW I am so different? It’s a strange paradox.
I truly believe God has PULLED me through much of that time. I truly believe that He put me where I am for His purpose even though unbeknownst to me I was fighting against it for a portion of that time and gliding through asleep some of it too. I am a testament to the fact that what God wants to do with you He will.
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’Isaiah 41:10
For Him to get the glory that He wants I can’t be scared to share anymore. I can’t be scared to step outside my comfort zone. It will be insulting to Him for me to ignore the call placed on my heart.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)
Are you scared? Are you hesitant? Are you ignoring something in your own life thinking that that “calling” will go away? I will tell you that for some time if you ignore it you might fade away into the background but God forbid you let it seep back into your mind. God doesn't go away whether you ignore Him or not.
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