Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Something Struck Me

Something struck me this morning as I was walking into my kitchen to put the kids milk cups back in the fridge after breakfast…I have NO idea WHY it hit me when it did…maybe because with the new year beginning I've been pondering resolutions and goals and how my life will be “different” this year.  

Ya know pondering as I’m fighting a cold, and cleaning up spilled milk and starting a new business and being specific and intentional about my blog.  Pondering as my house is a mess, and I feel out of sorts a lot of the time, and my to do list is loaded with more “to dos” than lines marking things complete.  Pondering as I stress about ensuring I am 100% authentic to everyone all the time because that is my #1 pet peeve.  Pondering as I wonder if I let me kids watch too much television, as I am concerned I’m going to get locked in the basement by my 3 year old every time I go down to switch out laundry (because it already happened once), as I think I really do need to make that eye appointment but am avoiding it because I hate the eye dr (if your glasses were as thick as mine and your eyes kept getting worse each year you would want to avoid it too). 

Oh yeah that thing that struck me…(see I really get off track easily don’t I…please tell me I’m not the only one)…some days I still wake up and think of myself as that carefree 20 year old…and what struck me is that that was 12 years ago!  I remember my mom telling me when I was probably about 25 and talking to her about how I didn't feel old enough to have a responsible job and my own condo that she didn't feel almost 50.  Life marches along whether we fully realize those moments or not.

Those 12 years were FILLED with all kinds of different experiences.  Boy, am I a different person now.  How can I look back at that girl and simultaneously still think I am the same but yet KNOW I am so different?  It’s a strange paradox. 

I truly believe God has PULLED me through much of that time.  I truly believe that He put me where I am for His purpose even though unbeknownst to me I was fighting against it for a portion of that time and gliding through asleep some of it too.  I am a testament to the fact that what God wants to do with you He will. 

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’Isaiah 41:10

For Him to get the glory that He wants I can’t be scared to share anymore.  I can’t be scared to step outside my comfort zone.  It will be insulting to Him for me to ignore the call placed on my heart.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)

Are you scared?  Are you hesitant?  Are you ignoring something in your own life thinking that that “calling” will go away?  I will tell you that for some time if you ignore it you might fade away into the background but God forbid you let it seep back into your mind.  God doesn't go away whether you ignore Him or not. 
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  1. This was very encouraging to read this morning. Thank you for posting.


  2. Hi Kelly, thanks for co-hosting. Yes, it's true...God doesn't go away! :-) The best thing to do, is to not go against the wave, but just go with the flow! Life happens, but we're the determining factor as to whether it happens well or not. Yes, I too HATE the eye doctor! I've worn corrective lenses since I was five(that was forty years ago), lol! Thanks for sharing and have a blessed rest of your week! ;-)

    Michell @Prowess and Pearls

  3. oh i loved this post. I agree, I think it is an insult to the Lord if we do not live out the calling he places on our lives. Also, I can't believe in 3 years I will be 30. I too feel like I'm 20 on some days. Time flies.

  4. I know,right??? I keep saying I still feel 26 (in fact I say I'm eternally 26) but the truth is that somewhere in the blink of an eye that 26 year old young woman was 17 years - and an entirely different person - ago. Sadly, I have spent much of that time in fear - running from God. Running from His plan for me. Running from... well, myself.

  5. I read 2 Timothy 1:7 for my devotion this morning and yes indeed fear will hold you back from your calling. I was just pondering that this VERY morning ! God bless you Kelly. I hope you had a beautiful day today.

    Gertrude @ A Chosen Remant

  6. Oh Kelly this sounds like me right now. Sick for 2 days and now my todo list is huge! But I'm excited for the new year :)

  7. You are truly a blessing to me! We are always on the same path! I always have those scriptures in me each and everyday! ‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’Isaiah 41:10 I have to be able to walk through that door that GOD has put before me and just GO, not looking back but putting all my TRUST in God! Love You thanks for this!

  8. Kelly, I love love love this. I love that you know God placed this call on you and that you know you were scared and that you know you cant be scared anymore. I feel the same way. I just tweeted that every time i write a post completely from my soul (and yes, had to do with God) I lose used to bother me so much that i'd unpublish posts, etc.. I simply put it out there. i dont care. I know God placed me behind this keyboard for a reason...and there are people like you who speak into my life.. and if it werent' for posts like this, that other people are in the same positions or similar, sometimes I might you can know that you are doing exactly what you are called to do...and it encourages me to do what I am called to do and I love that the body of CHrist works together like that... anyways, sorry for writing a blog post on your comments... lol.

  9. this is great, Kelly! second paragraph? now who's in whose head, LOL ;) and in so many ways it sucks getting older. today an 18 year old guy said he had thought I was 25, though, HA. I still feel 25... I really didn't want to tell him my real age. he was probably just trying to make sure to guess low, LOL. but I am definitely thankful for the experience those extra years have brought me. I am much more at peace and purposeful than I was at 25 and thank God for that =)


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