Life is about change. It’s about the ebbs and flows and twists and turns and much of the happiness and contentment of our lives is how we deal with all of that. When I look at myself in the mirror I have to admit that often I don’t deal with it well or the right way. I cry. I complain. I even…GASP…whine.
If you've been a reader of this blog for the last year you know that I've been pretty quiet as of late. I've been quiet because I've been out of my head in some ways. And when you are out of your head it’s hard to write. Or at least it is for me.
We moved into this rental home back in October. You can read a few posts about that here. It was our dream to be out in the country with the kids where they would have plenty of room to run and play. This home is circa 1800s with so much charm! I was in love from the moment I laid eyes on it. Sometimes dreams turn into nightmares. I've written before about some of the issues we've had. In the last month, everything’s went from bad to much worse.
To make a LONG story short, this house is super old which we knew and a little bit run down cosmetically but nothing major (so it appeared) especially for the rent price. The guts of the house are another story! Every month multiple things have broken. We got a bill last month for almost $4K for the fuel oil when we were told when we moved in the utilities would run about $200 a month. We find out now the boiler is 50 years old and the whole system needs replaced. The roof also needs replaced which we knew. It keeps leaking and who knows what's between that and the ceiling (aka mold and lots of it). Approximately $250K worth of remodeling needs done. They told us it would be best for us to move out because of everything and we totally agree BUT then we needed MORE fuel oil!
There are so many details I’m leaving out but this is the jist of it. We are expected to pay for all the fuel oil when we were completely mislead about EVERYTHING when we moved into the house in the first place. We never would have moved in otherwise! We are moving in with my inlaws next weekend to regroup and make decisions with a clear head. We need to be out before the fuel oil runs out which will probably be in the next week (even though we paid rent through the end of February).
That brings us to today. Sitting in my dining room (mine for another few days), typing as my little man runs around pretending he is a ninja turtle while the other little ones are napping. Sitting here FINALLY feeling like everything is really going to be ok with the situation. Sitting here FINALLY able to acknowledge God always has a better way because unlike us he knows our future.
The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way; Psalm 137:23
It is so easy to give other’s advice and to say to them in their time of trial that God is with them. That God has a plan. That God is good all the time. When you are in the midst of trial it is harder to be comforted by those same words.
Those words ARE true. I think in our times of hardship satan just loves to come in and rock our already rocked world. The TRUTH is that when God lives in us that door is blocked.
Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 1 John 4:4
The owner of this farm is tough. She is old. Her heart seems to be hardened. Please pray with me for her. That is what God wants from us. To pray for the lost. Please pray for Mrs. F.
Brothers, my heart's desire and prayer to God for them is that they may be saved. Romans 10:1