…I then found out I was pregnant again. It was a complete surprise! Total God thing? Ya think?????
You might THINK I “GOT” this right away. Like a big 'ole smack on the head!!
“Kelly, you are WHERE you are CALLED TO BE!!!”
Not a chance!!!
I then kicked the job search into high gear, getting in touch with old co-workers and contacts I had. I updated my LinkedIn profile. You name it…I did it.
I knew that since I was preggers again I would have to move fast if I would get a job quickly enough to get used to it before I went on maternity leave.
I researched nanny options, talked to friends with nannys, got their recommendations, etc.
I had all my ducks in a row.
I did NOT get a job.
My old organization was not winning any new work so I could not go back there. I heard from a couple other places that turned out to be dead ends for one reason or another.
I did NOT understand and I was frustrated!!!
I started to question if I was supposed to go back to work but my foolish pride would honestly not let it go. This is what I said I was going to do. I am going to do it…
But, slowly God broke me down. He did it in a way so that I didn’t even realize it was happening.
The final straw was this:
One evening over Chinese food my husband and I were discussing me staying home vs going back to work.
I can’t remember the conversation much except that there was one AND that at the end of dinner I said something to the affect of “I just want to do something where I feel like I’m using my brain.”
As I was saying this Justin opened up the fortune cookies and handed me one.
I KID YOU NOT MINE SAID:
“A handful of patience is worth
more than a bushel of brains.”
We just looked at each other dumbfounded and burst out laughing.
Ok...God I got it!!!
So that lands me in this place…
…SAHM to 4 little crazy lovely people.
Getting by each and every day solely by God’s grace.